say hi to...

it's not like i'm trying to brush you off
i'm just ignoring the fact
that you brushed me off
maaybe i'm just not that important
maybe i'm not distracting enough
it's ok though
there is nothing that time won't erase
i'm a big fucking boy
and crying was so yesterday
or maybe tonight too
who knows

for now
i'll just think about what's important
aka
nothing
too bad it's not that easy
everything's important
everything is so damn intertwined
and beautiful
so someday i'll know what this night meant
someday i'll know what i meant
but for now
i'll think of ghosts
in their own strange way
they care
even though they disappear now and then
they'll come back

say hi to me

for God's sake
suffocate me
I can handle it
I'm not asking you to kill me
I'm just asking you to make it
so that I have a reminder
that you're still there
I do know you're still there
but please
i'm begging you
make this tangible
make tears flow from my eyes
while I can't breathe
then save me
take me in this moment of euphoria
and then i'll be ok