tonight

tonight wasn't so clear
in fact so foggy
that i couldn't tell
that everything around me
wasn't real

infact
it's so unclear that
i can't even tell
that somewhere there's
a broken heart

but now i've forgotten that feeling
i don't care
because it won't effect me
i'm invincible
i can't feel
i'm gone

Just for tonight

can we call this home
for tonight
for tonight
for tonight

can i call you mine
for tonight
or maybe
tomorrow too

i've been searching
for someone like you
who won't remember me
tomorrow
i won't remember
a thing about you

there's no need for
goodbyes
when we never said hello
i already walked out the door
it will fall apart
and i'll be gone

Why hide?

you see it in a lot of different movies
someone has information
and someone else threatens their life for the info

my question is this:
does life preservation really kick
in that much that people spill their guts
i for one, would find it rather spiteful
to let someone kill me and not get the info

i mean like COME ON
your dead. it's going to happen someday
then they don't get the info
and you've done someone else a favour

geeeeeez

paranoid fever

i don't know if i shrunk
or if the room got bigger
maybe both

but with all this space
there's no air
i can't breathe

i feel heavy
but i'm floating
suspended
i can't move
i can't propel myself anywhere

cloud 9 doesn't feel so comfortable right now

To you:

tonight i have something on my mind
so i'm going to write about it

first of all, this song is stuck in my head


today i was thinking about winning the lottery
so i'm going to do it
i'm just going to buy a lottery ticket
and i will win
mind over matter right?

in addition to those though
my thoughts over the last few days
have lead me to the conclusion
that i'm so ready to move on in life
to the next step of things
to be on my own
in my own place
it seems like a young age in this generation
but we live in a world of defying
the rules of what we can and can't do
i'm ready to do that

Albums of the Decade

it's a bit into 2010 now but i figured i'd put the albums that i loved of the decade.

#1- Circa Survive- Juturna

***beyond this point it's in no particular order. I just had to be clear that Juturna held the number 1 spot:)

Bring Me The Horizon- Suicide Season and Suicide Season Cut Up
August Burns Red- Thrill Seeker and Messengers
Tegan & Sara- The Con and So Jealous
Just Surrender- If These Streets Could Talk
Dashboard Confessional- Swiss Army Romance and The Place You Have Come to Fear the Most
Kanye West- Graduation
Birdman and Lil Wayne- Like Father Like Son
Animals As Leaders- Self Titled
John Mayer- Basically like. EVERY album he put out
Linkin Park- Meteora
As Tall As Lions- Self Titled
Mew- Half the World Is Watching
MGMT- Oracular Spectactular
Neverending White Lights- Act I and II
Nickelback- Silver Side Up
Norma Jean- O' God the Aftermath
Parkway Drive- Killing With A Smile and yah I guess Horizons can be here too
Four Tet- Everything Ecstatic
RJD2- Since We Last Spoke
Underoath- We're Only Chasing Safety
Death Cab for Cutie- Transatlanticism and Plans
The Fall of Troy- Doppleganger
As I Lay Dying- Shadows Are Security and Frail Worls Collapse
Architects- Hollow Crown
The Used- Self Titled
Thrice- Vheissu
The Sounds of Animals Fighting- All of them;)
A Skylit Drive- Wires... and the Concept of Breathing and Adelphia
Sky Eats Airplane- Everything Perfect on the Wrong Day
Saosin- Self Titled
Rise Against- Revolutions per Minute and Siren Song of the Counter Culture
Protest the Hero- Kezia
City and Colour- Sometimes and Bring Me Your Love


I'm sure there's more, but this is the most memorable

love, love, love

last night i saw you for the first time
as soon as it happened
i fell in love with you
and know you fell in love with me

the moment was incredible
you carried me on your wings

then it was gone
you were restricted access
nothing i could ever attempt
would get me back to you

you were an angel
you were mine
i was yours

i'll never forget you

time for your close up

i took this in the summmer. wooooooh for plants

say hi to oreo cake

good God I would love some of this right now!

thinking and it's effects;)

so often we as humans consume ourselves
with thoughts
it drives us to frustration and anger
and upset
all for no reason
our heads are empty cups
waiting to be filled
with thoughts and information
and although i can't explain why
our heads find ways to fill
itself with thoughts if we
can't do it fully or at all
it completes are incomplete thoughts for us
it creates second guesses
and takes away from our gut feeling

though i believe it's good to observe these thoughts
i also believe that those doubts and second guesses
can be dangerous
and can tear you apart

let the thoughts occupy your head
but don't let them consume you

thinking. yum.

this originally didn't post??
well thank God for drafts!!



failure seems to have numerous effects
it can get you down
it can take away your will
to press on
to try again

or it can motivate you
push you
it can teach you
and open your eyes

work work work

even if it wasn't busy at work
work is still keeping my day full!

it's kind of good
kind of bad
i miss the downtime
i also hate small towns:(

on the other hand i'm experiencing
so many different learning styles
so many different levels of effort
of comprehension
and application

all in all, i'd say that i could see
myself doing this for a while

UHOH!

soooo
if anybody is even reading this- i've been slacking a bit
the beginning of new year was a busy busy bitch

but my effort will once again return
so keep watch for posts

there will probably be one later tonight!

Bang

that's how this year started off
the bar has sure been set damn high
this could mean one of two things about
the upcoming year

it could be a goood fucking year

or it could be a disappointment

doesn't really matter what happens
obviously i hope for one more than the other
but the first two days were HOT